7 more days...or maybe a lil less if I test early. I really hope there's a baby in there!

If not...then its going to be a very sad day.

9 days (give or take a day) til I can test and see if this cycle was a success or not....

...really trying not to read into "symptoms" that I may or may not be having.

Just want this baby so bad! Also go back and forth almost daily dreaming about twins since it's a higher possibility. I think we better just hope for one healthy, happy baby at a time. :)

Snow has been coming down like crazy all day! Yay. :)

Got out of the house for a lil while today since Andy was watching football all day ...and still is. The semi-annual sale started today at Bath & Body works so I ended up with 6 things for $21!! Many great deals there...go check it out!

Then I went to Babies R Us...go there about once a month for my baby fix. :) They were having sales...they usually are having a sale on something every time I go there. I got a 5 pack of boy onesies for $2 (normally $14.99) and some gender neutral pants (white with green and orange stripes) for $1.40. Then I decided I might as well sign up for the Rewards card (kinda like a coupon card--it was free) since I've already spent some money in there before and will be spending more in the hopefully near future. fyi...their deals are usually better than Target and they have more clothing selection!

Trust in the Lord with all your heart; Lean not on your own understanding; but in all ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths.

Merry Christmas Everyone! We are so thankful for the many great supportive people we have surrounding us. Happy Birthday to Jesus. He is the reason for this whole season. "Simplify the season, celebrate the reason."

Here's a quick update since I know you are waiting....

The left ovary did nothing...neither follicle grew hardly anymore. The 2 in the right went to 12 and 13. So no shot. The tech said they may still release on their own and we could potentially become pregnant. :( Didn't see Dr. L. He was out today, go figure.

And I started feeling sick at work last night....extremely sore throat and my face and eyes feel like they are on fire....great.

Talked to a friend at work who struggled with infertility for 3 years. We've been talking on and off about stuff. She told me she normally had around 10 follicles during her follicle studies. So I have some seriously lazy ovaries!...and I'm only 24 so I hope it doesn't keep going downhill from here! We might have to increase the drug dosage if this cycle fails.

If tomorrow's ultrasound doesn't show any growth then we might have to move on to the next cycle since it's unlikely they will release on their own or with the shot if they aren't big enough.

Now its off to work I go. Going to be up for about 34-35 hours before I get to go to bed tomorrow night since I have my appt in the morning and then we are going to 3 family things between mine and Andy's family. Freaking HATE night shift! ...hoping to be able to nap from 8am-10am...we'll see..sometimes that makes it worse!

Read at your own risk!

The ultrasound did not go well. Neither ovary did a stellar job ...yet.

The left one has a 7mm and a 9mm follicle growing. The right ovary has two 11mm follicles growing. ....Dr. L wants them to be at least 18mm. So no shot today.

He wants me to come back Thursday morning for another ultrasound to see if any of them grew enough to be released by the trigger shot. If this cycle doesn't work then he will let me try Clomid 3 more times at higher doses. Leading to -- me breaking down in tears in the exam room....

Here's the catch. Insurance, of course, does not pay for infertility treatments so this follicle study ultrasound was $170 out of pocket paid today and it'll be the same price for Thursdays ultrasound. I am pretty sure that the trigger shot is also out of pocket. Insurance did cover part of my initial ultrasound last month to look at my ovaries (since it was labeled as irregular periods) and we still owe $112 on that one.

So the insurance companies don't care about those that actually want a baby! This is so frustrating and sad.

Starting to get a little nervous/antsy about my ultrasound on Tuesday morning...hope it shows at least one good follicle that's ready to be released. :) Please pray for us.

It's Snowing!!!

Done with the pills...bring on the US and shot! lol :)

Tried to do some christmas shopping today ...they were sold out of one thing that I was looking to buy for Andy. Then I went to 2 different stores to find ski poles for dad...neither store carried them...but I have 2 other stores to check out. I am closer to being done shopping though. I love the busy stores and happy people. :)

Well the side effects from this medication haven't been terrible. Only one incident of dizziness so far and I most certainly get the hot flashes quite a bit! (those are the 2 big side effects from the drug) I was starving at work last night...my friend Jillian said that must be a side effect too...I think I just wanted to eat..lol!

2 more days of this drug. :) Then ultrasound at 9:30am on the 22nd!

Almost done with my Christmas shopping...can't believe 2009 is coming to an end. Hopefully 2010 brings many blessings and miracles. There is much to be thankful for!

Had a great time this weekend! Here's the best highlight of our trip!

Baby Matthew--- One month old!

Girls shopping weekend in Frankenmuth this weekend so I will be MIA from the blog til Sunday night. Can't wait to meet my cousin's new baby boy Matthew! He will be a month old tomorrow! :)

Have a great weekend!

Here's the low down so that you don't have to scroll through past posts to find the details.

~Clomid pills Sunday through Thursday.
~Ultrasound to check for follicles/mature eggs (this is where we need the most prayers) on Dec 21 or 22.
~If there are any I will get the HCG shot that day.
~Pregnancy testing will be around January 4th-5th.

*****Please pray that this works on the first round, you know how much we want this baby!*****

Thanks! :)

Look at my new ticker. :) Yes we are very excited!

2 disappointments in one day....

Yet another negative pregnancy test..why do I keep taking them??? This is CD 41 for those wanting to keep track. Considering calling my OB to get a script for the Provera to jump start it...just afraid of the side effects and not sure how much it costs.

I also received the call today that I will not be going to days for the January schedule and most likely will not going to days with the February schedule either. (insert swear words here!!) They decided nights is too short (even though I would still be there from 3a-7a). They posted 2 part time nights positions and hope to hire someone(s) soon to start in January and be trained by mid-February for level 2 (basic). So best case scenario would be the March schedule.

Why freaking tell me that I have the position and then not let me move!!!

I was so freaking tempted to just call in sick today because I'm so pissed but that's a bit irresponsible considering 1) I'm not sick and 2) I don't want to use up what little PTO I have right now!

I am done with 2 out of my 3 classes now for this semester. Yay for that. Now to make that important decision about whether to continue or not. Leaning towards stopping classes ...but fear that I will be labeled a quitter.

Nothing yet. Hate this.

Got up early so that I could test before Andy went to work and it was negative. :(

Guess my body isn't going to have a 36ish day cycle this time. Feel like a failure this week...depressing that I can't get pregnant when we want to. Doing everything right and it still is taking a while. Tried to go back to sleep after I tested and I couldn't so I've been up since 7:30...so unlike me.

In order news I checked out yet another book on Infertility from the library...this is another one written by someone who's been through this hell. I read another one written from this perspective and I read a more medical oriented one. A girl at work also recommended her infertility doc in case my OB can't get me pregnant with meds and injections. She brought it up...not me. Don't want you to think that all I ever do is talk about my problems. There are a few at work that seem to be geniunely concerned about me and interested in whats going on.

Sorry that this blog seems to be filled with sadness and topics of infertility every time you open it to read it. Welcome to my world!

This freaking waiting game better be worth it!! Good lord.

CD 36...so if I'm going to have another 36 day cycle like I did in Aug-Sept..my stupid period should come today. Still a no show at 4:30pm. Blah. I just want to know if I'm pregnant or if we are still playing the waiting game! I'll keep ya updated. :)

Still don't know when I get to go to day shift...it is supposed to be with the January schedule but they are not sure. It may be later than that since they weren't able to post any new positions until Monday (and they only posted one instead of the 3 that they were supposed to!)...due to us not meeting budget for 3 months in a row...missed it by a fraction is what I heard. How are we supposed to stay within budget if we are paying some girls call time to come in extra?? Lets hire a new person and pay them straight time...duh!

Still indecisive about school....so yeah...just waiting and waiting...this sucks...a lot!

Happy December. :) Bring on the snow!