Can't believe November is almost over. 2009 is flying right by...hopefully 2010 will be a good year!

Tested early yesterday...it was negative. :( Still have one more pregnancy test at home...hoping to hold out til next Saturday the 5th unless of course my period comes before that. Wish I could have known it was going to be negative...might have had a glass of wine at Thanksgiving dinner!....maybe it was just too early to detect the pregnancy hormone...that's what I try to tell myself!

This semester is so close to being done! I will be completely done with my Embryology class on the 5th and the other two classes will be done on the 11th. Crazy!

Happy Birthday to Andy!! :)

We hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving! Ours was fun...except I had to work 7p-7a last night. Mom and I did do a little shopping after I got up today. We went to Target and Jo-Ann Fabrics. :) Can't wait to celebrate Andy's Birthday tomorrow---he'll be 29!

Bedding :)

Since I'm a lil bored while football is still on... heres the bedding we like so far for each gender. :)

This is just one of the ones we currently like for a boy:




and this is our favorite right now for a girl:



We are 99% sure we are going to go with dark wood (espresso or cherry) for the nursery furniture. We also have our car seat/stroller picked out too. :) As well as other things...I'm a planner and have had some time to look and compare reviews and safety ratings! Both of the above bedding sets are at Babies R Us.

ARRGGHH....that's what I want to say right now.

In other news...Andy and I rented The Ugly Truth tonight since I got cancelled at work til 3am. It was good! :)

Finally Friday...but we don't have much planned..lol..oh well.

No new news to update anyone on. This is CD24 for me (cycle day 24)...so if my cycle is going to be another 36 day one than I would have ovulated within the last 48 hours....but all the ovulation predicator kit sticks were negative (all 7 days of them). So we will just wait and see. If it's another 48 day one then we still have quite a bit of time to wait....maybe it'll be in the middle of that..wouldn't that be grand?!?

Have to keep this blog somewhat light and cheery so that my readers don't think I'm a hopeless depressed woman. This way if I give out facts here and there one of you may be able to use it down the road when you are trying to have a baby.

On a happy note...we had an admission last night and the Neo let me call one of the shots since he was at home and decisions needed to be made before he was able to get to the hospital!

Still no word from the doc and nothing in the mailbox either..thanks Erica for suggesting that idea...thought it might come through the mail but it didn't. I am just going to assume everything is ok unless I hear otherwise since I'll be in contact with him anyways once my period starts again or I get a postive pregnancy test.

Feeling frustrated today...some days it is better than others but today I just don't understand why it can't be us right now that is pregnant! Andy is taking this quite a bit better than me. He just keeps saying that it'll happen when God wants it to happen. He is certainly much more patient than me...which is a good thing. Guess I just need to sit back and enjoy my life as it is right now.

Hope for the best, prepare for the worst!

Still very indecisive about continuing school....really wish there was a clear cut answer. The program has been cut by IUPUI due to budgeting reasons so everyone that is in the NNP program has to be graduated by May 2012 so I do have a little bit of time to play with if I do take a leave of absence. Just not sure what I want to do.

Makes me want to cry and scream at the same time!

Still no word from the doc. I waited on hold for almost 15 minutes today before giving up..and that was just to speak with the nurse...supposedly he will review the images and call me soon. ARRGG...I'll call again tomorrow if he doesn't call me. How long can they let someone wait. That's just ridiculous. I'm assuming everything is normal but I would like some confirmation!

While reading my Infertility book tonight...I read the section about the injections. The one that I'll be getting (if I don't get pregnant on my own this month) is called Ovidrel and the sting factor is listed as medium to high. ...great!

Dear Body,
Please get pregnant on your own. Your owner HATES shots and will usually pass out or become dizzy and/or nauseous with them.
Love,
Ashley

No news from the doc today. Maybe tomorrow.

I am getting more impatient with the whole baby making process. I just want it to be our turn. I know God is in control but I don't understand why there is such a delay! Just trying to live in the moment and take as good of care of myself as I can.

Classes are getting close to being done for the semester and I am happy about that!! Less than a month to go! Still going back and forth about continuing with school...leaning towards no right now.

No word yet from Dr. L...if he doesn't call soon I'll call the office!

Had my lovely internal ultrasound...highly recommend it if you wanna be violated by a wand! lol :) Anyways..the tech had a little trouble getting a good visual on my right ovary at first but said that everything looked normal to her. Dr.L will read the images and either call me today (unlikely) or early next week.

Checked out 2 books from the library on Infertility...I've learned a lot from 2 of the girls at work that I talk to that have been through this but it'll be nice to read about things as well.

In other news..my cousin Stephanie had her baby boy!! Matthew Thomas arrived yesterday (2 weeks early)! They are home now and doing great. :)

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Another girl at work had a miscarriage. :( She was due in March/April (can't remember at this moment). Life can be so unfair at times. Please pray for our NICU.

Time for an update for those wanting one!

Today was my appointment with my OB/GYN. After all the "yearly" stuff was taken care of we talked about my wack job of a body. He is so proactive (as I've heard about most of the docs in this practice) and I'm very happy about that!

Here's the plan: Ultrasound on Friday to make sure everything looks normal inside.

Then we wait for my period to start (god hope it comes before the new year!). On days 5-9 of my cycle I'll take the drug Clomid to force my ovaries to prepare a follice (mature egg). Then on day 13 or 14 of my cycle I'll have an ultrasound to see if either of my ovaries prepared any eggs. If they have I will receive a shot to force the ovary to release the egg...and then you know what needs to occur after that!

He said it is unlikely we will get pregnant on our own this month due to the long irregular cycles I've had. But we will still try.

This is all very frustrating and makes me quite bitter at times but I am trying to just not stress and go with the flow. Key word: trying!

Yes,..there are side effects to Clomid..hot flashes and moodiness. Oh well. There is an increased risk of twinning also. (Getting pregnant with twins.) He said the risk is not very high though.

Going back to using the ovulation predictor kits this month...now just gotta figure out which 7 days to use the strips since my cycles have been so wacky! Wish us luck!

Hoping & Praying for a "little turkey." :)

Really hope that November is our lucky month. "Third times a charm" did not work...this is month # 4...yippee..not! I go to the Doctor Nov 10th to hear what my options are. We just hope that my body cooperates and gets pregnant the natural way.

Still not sure what I want to do about school....waiting to hear back from my advisor on what the policy is on taking time off.

I'm turning down the St. Vincent NICU job...the offer is full time days at $22/hr. Not good enough to make the drive. I make very close to that amount right now. Oh well...it was worth a shot.

Found out yesterday that St. Vincent who has been staffing Parkview Norths NICU with neonatologists is about up on their contract..YAY! Dr. Biehl..who is our head neo might be taking over their contract so that we can "own" Parkview Norths NICU. If thats the case then he might be able to hire me and Christy (another girl I work with) after we graduate from NNP school. Now I just need to decide what I want to do about school!

Contemplating taking an extended leave of absence from NNP school after this semester... just want to focus on starting a family. Plus the job opportunities for NNPs aren't spectactular here since Lutheran and Dupont already have one and don't need anymore since they aren't huge hospitals....lots of thinking to do!

Very excited still about going to day shift in a couple of months...never thought it would happen!