Get prepared for a very long post.


Well my wallet and my left hip are hurting today. The injection was huge...3 mls (about an inch and a half of fluid). So we get to have "timed intercourse" this weekend. Sorry if that's tmi! Dr. L said the Hcg can stay in the body for a while (at least 10 days) so he's recommending not taking a pregnancy test until at least 14 days from now. Or I could go in and have my blood drawn (for a fee). If my period doesn't start he wants my blood drawn anyways. So ...14 days from now is February 12. Right before Valentines Day....so I might just wait til the 15th if I can hold out that long.

Andy doesn't want to continue with the treatments. He is stressed about the cost and is now admitting that he thinks we should have tried on our own for a longer amount of time. Even though I wasn't ovulating so it didn't matter. We could have tried forever.

So if this cycle doesn't work we may try one more cycle with an increased dosage of the Clomid. Or we might not. If he decides that we can't handle one more cycle then we jump right to his plan of trying on our own for 4 months. If we still aren't pregnant after all that then we will reevaulate our options. I'm not very optimistic that it will happen without the treatments since I wasn't ovulating before and still haven't. But marriage is about compromise right? Gotta be willing to try it the other way for a while.

Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would end up in this situation. Both my mother and Andy think everything baby related is consuming my life so they are trying to get me to focus on other things. I thought when you wanted something you go after it with all you have...not just sit back and hope it happens.

Sorry if I sound like a dramatic brat. Being a mother is all that I want to do.